grudging

Etymology

adj

1. Unwilling or with reluctance.
   her grudging acceptance that her rival deserved the award
   A terse account, with no further explanation or detail, an indication perhaps of a grudging heart behind the offering. 2001, David L. Lieber, Jules Harlow, Etz Hayim: Torah and Commentary, page 25

verb

1. present participle and gerund of grudge

noun

1. The state of bearing a grudge.
   Fretfulness and discontent expose us to the just judgment of God; and we bring more calamities upon ourselves, by our murmuring, distrustful, envious groans and grudgings against one another, than we are aware of […] 1806, Matthew Henry, An Exposition of All the Books of the Old and New Testaments